Writing

I share reflections, short essays and poetic writing on embodiment,

love, power, creativity, and becoming.

it’s not about the spirit highs

macrodosing wisdom

the thing you seek

is not found in external validation

the far above

the reach

it’s in the very places

you wish to visit least.

the shame, the fear

the guilt, the abandonment

It’s at the mud beneath your feet

the wild eyes and broken bits,

the cracks that

let the light pour in

your soul knows

the darkness is heaven sent

your only task

 is to listen

growth


Catch myself in the same old daydream

Serpent jaws opening

Widen my mouth to let life in fully

How to tell the difference

Between heaven and sin

I ache to hold both

In the palm of my hand

Tension and revelry

The sacred and profane

An inner alchemy 

My mind and body both contain

some part of me longing

To change my state

I’m here, for now

But already

d i s s o l v i n g  

ouroboros 

Not in the mood to be

patronized by memories

So I’ll sit back

and bite the hand that feeds me

Suck out the toxins

cause baby, that’s healing

Shift the narrative

of pleasure and pain

The poison is the nectar,

this is the only way

Cause I’m not just here

for the soft and sweet

Don’t feel satisfied

with candy coating my teeth

watch me basking in the revelry

Licking each of my fingers

i n d i v i d u a l l y

- responsible hedonism